BEING A NORTH EASTERN
The aloof attitude of the other Indians.but it depends on the situation.
Generally northeastern find it difficult to intermingle with the other people. Cultural and religious difference may be a reason. The outlook of life is different. Not saying that we are westernized but may be we try to ape the west. Therefore, there comes the gap.
Race and religion are important issues.
It may a fault of the north eastern that they can not be immediately in harmony with others and are very conscious of discrimination, which they take to heart. Again, in a way, everyone is like that.
Any discrimination that they face are taken as a discrimination of their race. India is such a diverse country, with different races. However, even after a co existence for so many centuries, there is no harmony. “Harmony in diversity” is one such thing that I can never see India achieve. No race has any respect for the other and is selfishly perusing their personal betterment.
There is a feeling that the rest of India does not consider the north east as one of them. They are treated differently. This attitude is something that does not make the northeastern feel a part of this country.
There seems to be a barrier between the northeastern and the others. They are not able to understand each other and are not even interested. Each considers itself different from the others. The northeastern do not trust the other Indians.
There should be more interaction. All Indians show tolerant attitude towards other races, communities, religions etc.
However, whatever it is, it depends on your personality- how you project your self to others. Nevertheless, the general attitude of others is that they treat the northeastern as different. They look down upon them and make them feel inferior. This is something to fight against to prove ourselves to them.
Northeastern feel a kind of cultural shock when they come to other Indian states.
People here are not aware of the northeast. Many people do not even know where Nagaland, Mizoram, Manipur are. They think that it is outside India.
At least things are much better than they were earlier. May be it is because of the influx of the northeastern students in the cities and all parts of India.
.Northeastern have their own groups and unions. They organize events and celebrate their cultural festivals. This is how we come together and this helps other Indians to know more our culture.
Eve teasing is a major problem
Eve teasing- become indifferent to it. just ignore it. It is useless to fight back with people who do not want to understand. In addition, it is general. It happens with all women from whatever race or religion. However, in the case of northeastern girls; they are taken for granted. Moreover, are thought to be easy targets because of their openness.
We have a different dressing sense. Our traditional outfits are different. Different language. Hindi is not a common language in most of the northeastern states. We face a major language problem when we come here.
There is economic backwardness in this region. The common person feels that the politics in the northeast is very corrupt as in other parts of India. Politics is now all about money and has no ideology. No one is thinking of his state. Most of the politicians are corrupt. Very few idealists are there. This may be a reason why this region has not progressed. The government seems to be all talks and no action. Politicians are only looking for money and power. Northeast is still behind in development.
Dissatisfied with the Indian government and the NSCN. The peace talks are not bringing any solution.
Many people do look down on the northeastern for reasons unknown to us. May be they feel that we are an inferior race. Even the region is still not developed.
Political problem is not allowing the region to progress. The ULFA, the NSCN claim to be for the benefit of the region. But nothing seems like this. A nation with freedom of speech but that cannot be practiced.
Racism is something that can never be stopped. Every race looking down on the other. Each region of India looking down on the other. The Asian countries looking down in India- a country of poverty and sickness and filth. The west looking down on the Asians. Everyone projects his race to be superior race. There is no end to it.
Northeastern are discriminated in other regions. People from other regions are discriminated in the northeastern states. It is useless to talk about this thing. A cycle never ends. In the end, it is just about how you project yourself to others. It is not going to end the problem but you can hope that maybe some people will look at you beyond your race, caste, and religion. May be it is the time that we look at a person for what he really is.
India is actually a divided country- caste, race, religion,. To be united we should forget our differences. It not only the north eastern that are discriminated. No one is spared.
THERE IS REPETITION IN THE VIEWS BUT BEING REPETATIVE IS ALSO A WAY OF PUTTING EMPHASIS.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
CASTRATION
CASTRATION
On a Saturday his friends decided to go and see the nearest shopping mall. Actually during the last four Sundays they took him for Delhi Darshan. They had many photographs clicked and he pretty excited about everything. Last Sunday he pointed towards some western tourists at Rajghat and shouted in disbelief-“ Angrez! Angrez!” it startled all the visitors there. His friends felt embarrassed with this boorish behaviour of their friend who had recently come from the village. They immediately silenced him and almost dragged towards Shantiban, an adjoining park sort of space. On the way, he was fed with all civilizing instructions- how people in Delhi don’t behave. He listened them with changing facial expressions, which were mostly those of guilty confession. He noticed a couple, they looked unmarried, behind a bush and looked towards his friends with questioning eyes. They made it easy for him to understand the thing with a light smile and many other bushes. They made some crude remarks and he also participated in their way which was not very unlike him now except in language. He understood the difference between Rajghat and Shantiban; Gandhi’s Samadhi and ‘behind the bushes’. He understood how his friends were acting ‘civilized’. He marveled on this art. He also understood how metro makes one. But , in spite of all these understanding, one thing he could not understand was how to feel about all these things.
He was quite excited about this mall visit. No confusion was in his mind but the different images that could be a mall. His friends described everything with smallest details. Fully AC, self-running stairs and much more. They also told him how cameras watched over all the places. And they never missed to remind him how to behave or how to move or how to look at the things. Finally, in the evening, they were in front of the mall. He followed his friends while entering the mall. Everything was awful there. He saw how his friends balanced on the escalators. He saw the way his friends liked the things and then disliked them and then bought nothing. He was just following them. He saw other people buying the same things. Were they fools? He had no idea but may be. He kept following his friends. They moved from one store to another. Every time they came out they talked about the prices of the things, how much they would costing another market and how fool the others were. “Really they are”. He thought.
After going through different stores, finally, they came to a video parlour. They saw many CDs like music, film, porn etc. first time he felt his he felt his right hand in his pocket. A steaming scene on the cover of a porn CD cassette drove his fantasy to another level. He pressed his hardened dick against his thigh. He moved away from his friends, from the stall, away from all the eyes and the only place that proved to his wish was the parking lot. In the semi-darkened space, he thought of easing his fantasy. He remembered his several adventures in his village. Sometimes in an orchard, sometimes in any cornfield, once in the back of the village school when it was dark. He eased himself against the back of a car and started moving his hand. His eyes were closed and he could hear the moaning, the cry and his triumphant movement. He felt a body moving under his pressure. He could not fix the head. Intensity of desire had outdone the choice or preference. He just felt two round breasts, the opened thighs, and his erect penis, which was complimented as big by that headless body. He thrust harder and harder and heard her yelling in pain, saying that his was just too big. He imagined her bleeding and further lubricating the passage, which was his conquered zone. He smiled when his imagination made her to beg to be a bit slower or to stop. But he kept on and her protesting voice was stifled under his chest. She held the crops or grass roots or whatever that was within her reach and uprooted it when the pain was too intense. He moved even faster. Sometimes he got slightly slow or almost stopped but renewed the same with the same vigour. “This is how a real mard does it” he mused.
But this was not his village and nor were his fields. It was an alien city with which he had still to align himself and learn to identify himself. He felt his imagination carrying him to the seventh height of pleasure as his hand was still at work. Suddenly he was surprised by them. A boy and a girl, standing hand in hand. He had felt some jerk and it was when the doors opened on the both sides of the car. Pleasure was just too absorbing to notice anything. He continued. He had heard the girl whispering something in the boy’s ear but damn them. He became faster. He was just coming to the point where it climax. But did he get it? He could have. His body was jerking with the rhythm of his hand when a voice, mixed of a male and a female, paused the world around him including himself. His eyes met theirs. He felt like hiding somewhere. the same hand smothered the same penis inside his pant in a hurried effort to minimize his shame. Al the bodily sensations were lost for a moment and a mixed expression of embarrassment, anger, guilt, and surrender appeared on his face when he found those two faces still looking at him with a cynical smile and some mocking encouragements. He felt time moving thousands times slower than a snail and wished only if those two faces would walk away and leave him alone. But how?
His head was bent down. A big confusion of sound was invading his ears from different angles. He did not know what those sounds were and from whom. Nor did he try to know. He was just trying to cover himself in silence with a shamefaced passivity, very unlike a tortoise in its shell. Was he really ashamed? A simple “yes” would be a simple lie. He was too much confused, confused with too many emotion, confused with too many thoughts. Angry with himself and also with the rest. He just wanted to close his eyes, lie down, and forget about everything as if nothing had happened. Traitor mind! He was still restless. He could see those two figures going away. “were not both of them fucking each other?” he thought. He felt angry. And probably envious. It was not for being an embarrassing discovery. The slowly moving hips of that girl were provocative. Strange imagination. Did not he remember what happened few moments before? He did. He was just trying to get over those moments. Always the best way to get over your present miseries is to fantasize about your future. He could have crushed her into pieces and make her feel and respect his masculinity. He put his right hand back into his pant. This time it was not for a wood picking or grass-cutting girl in his village. It was an amazing face in skirt and top. He could not imagine his field or the orchard beside the pond. But why not to imagine some unseen hotel room. Some of his friends talked about them. A HOTEL ROOM. Paid by? Even in his imagination, the question was there. “can not she pay!” he had heard about such things. All was an open-eyed dream. He grabbed his package to make a masculine gift to her passive beauty. A poor limp fool in his hand. Where was gone the erection? Could not his super masculine erection come from those village fields to that metro hotel? He tried to awake it. A poor lost thing. The lord of phallus was castrated.
On a Saturday his friends decided to go and see the nearest shopping mall. Actually during the last four Sundays they took him for Delhi Darshan. They had many photographs clicked and he pretty excited about everything. Last Sunday he pointed towards some western tourists at Rajghat and shouted in disbelief-“ Angrez! Angrez!” it startled all the visitors there. His friends felt embarrassed with this boorish behaviour of their friend who had recently come from the village. They immediately silenced him and almost dragged towards Shantiban, an adjoining park sort of space. On the way, he was fed with all civilizing instructions- how people in Delhi don’t behave. He listened them with changing facial expressions, which were mostly those of guilty confession. He noticed a couple, they looked unmarried, behind a bush and looked towards his friends with questioning eyes. They made it easy for him to understand the thing with a light smile and many other bushes. They made some crude remarks and he also participated in their way which was not very unlike him now except in language. He understood the difference between Rajghat and Shantiban; Gandhi’s Samadhi and ‘behind the bushes’. He understood how his friends were acting ‘civilized’. He marveled on this art. He also understood how metro makes one. But , in spite of all these understanding, one thing he could not understand was how to feel about all these things.
He was quite excited about this mall visit. No confusion was in his mind but the different images that could be a mall. His friends described everything with smallest details. Fully AC, self-running stairs and much more. They also told him how cameras watched over all the places. And they never missed to remind him how to behave or how to move or how to look at the things. Finally, in the evening, they were in front of the mall. He followed his friends while entering the mall. Everything was awful there. He saw how his friends balanced on the escalators. He saw the way his friends liked the things and then disliked them and then bought nothing. He was just following them. He saw other people buying the same things. Were they fools? He had no idea but may be. He kept following his friends. They moved from one store to another. Every time they came out they talked about the prices of the things, how much they would costing another market and how fool the others were. “Really they are”. He thought.
After going through different stores, finally, they came to a video parlour. They saw many CDs like music, film, porn etc. first time he felt his he felt his right hand in his pocket. A steaming scene on the cover of a porn CD cassette drove his fantasy to another level. He pressed his hardened dick against his thigh. He moved away from his friends, from the stall, away from all the eyes and the only place that proved to his wish was the parking lot. In the semi-darkened space, he thought of easing his fantasy. He remembered his several adventures in his village. Sometimes in an orchard, sometimes in any cornfield, once in the back of the village school when it was dark. He eased himself against the back of a car and started moving his hand. His eyes were closed and he could hear the moaning, the cry and his triumphant movement. He felt a body moving under his pressure. He could not fix the head. Intensity of desire had outdone the choice or preference. He just felt two round breasts, the opened thighs, and his erect penis, which was complimented as big by that headless body. He thrust harder and harder and heard her yelling in pain, saying that his was just too big. He imagined her bleeding and further lubricating the passage, which was his conquered zone. He smiled when his imagination made her to beg to be a bit slower or to stop. But he kept on and her protesting voice was stifled under his chest. She held the crops or grass roots or whatever that was within her reach and uprooted it when the pain was too intense. He moved even faster. Sometimes he got slightly slow or almost stopped but renewed the same with the same vigour. “This is how a real mard does it” he mused.
But this was not his village and nor were his fields. It was an alien city with which he had still to align himself and learn to identify himself. He felt his imagination carrying him to the seventh height of pleasure as his hand was still at work. Suddenly he was surprised by them. A boy and a girl, standing hand in hand. He had felt some jerk and it was when the doors opened on the both sides of the car. Pleasure was just too absorbing to notice anything. He continued. He had heard the girl whispering something in the boy’s ear but damn them. He became faster. He was just coming to the point where it climax. But did he get it? He could have. His body was jerking with the rhythm of his hand when a voice, mixed of a male and a female, paused the world around him including himself. His eyes met theirs. He felt like hiding somewhere. the same hand smothered the same penis inside his pant in a hurried effort to minimize his shame. Al the bodily sensations were lost for a moment and a mixed expression of embarrassment, anger, guilt, and surrender appeared on his face when he found those two faces still looking at him with a cynical smile and some mocking encouragements. He felt time moving thousands times slower than a snail and wished only if those two faces would walk away and leave him alone. But how?
His head was bent down. A big confusion of sound was invading his ears from different angles. He did not know what those sounds were and from whom. Nor did he try to know. He was just trying to cover himself in silence with a shamefaced passivity, very unlike a tortoise in its shell. Was he really ashamed? A simple “yes” would be a simple lie. He was too much confused, confused with too many emotion, confused with too many thoughts. Angry with himself and also with the rest. He just wanted to close his eyes, lie down, and forget about everything as if nothing had happened. Traitor mind! He was still restless. He could see those two figures going away. “were not both of them fucking each other?” he thought. He felt angry. And probably envious. It was not for being an embarrassing discovery. The slowly moving hips of that girl were provocative. Strange imagination. Did not he remember what happened few moments before? He did. He was just trying to get over those moments. Always the best way to get over your present miseries is to fantasize about your future. He could have crushed her into pieces and make her feel and respect his masculinity. He put his right hand back into his pant. This time it was not for a wood picking or grass-cutting girl in his village. It was an amazing face in skirt and top. He could not imagine his field or the orchard beside the pond. But why not to imagine some unseen hotel room. Some of his friends talked about them. A HOTEL ROOM. Paid by? Even in his imagination, the question was there. “can not she pay!” he had heard about such things. All was an open-eyed dream. He grabbed his package to make a masculine gift to her passive beauty. A poor limp fool in his hand. Where was gone the erection? Could not his super masculine erection come from those village fields to that metro hotel? He tried to awake it. A poor lost thing. The lord of phallus was castrated.
Monday, October 20, 2008
A DIRTY FACE
A DARTY FACE
We are “Mother’s pride”. These are from “Kid Zee”.
Those small smart kids looked, really, cute and eyes catching.
“What is this dirty dark face dong here?” no one had noticed it before. Management director’s question surprised everyone. All the teachers were looking into those pictures again. That dirty face popped through the variously arranged kids just like a beautiful curtain with a hole allows the ugliness, filth or sickness inside a house with no other cover.
“We did not notice him at all. India gate is a big place and so many beggars around.” This not so strong excuse of that teacher just added to the director’s irritation.
“You should have taken better care.”
“Sorry sir. Next time we will take better care.” That teacher came with a prompt apology.
“And burn these pictures. We cannot add them to our school album. Arrange any other trip and get some pictures that we can put for our advertisement.” This precise instruction came with a coldness that was enough to put the teachers on their toes.
“Oh I don’t know how that bastard got into all the photographs”. A teacher murmured as he was given the charge for arranging everything.
“Better we arrange this time in some amusement park. No such nonsense is there.” One teacher suggested. All the heads nodded in approval.
We are “Mother’s pride”. These are from “Kid Zee”.
Those small smart kids looked, really, cute and eyes catching.
“What is this dirty dark face dong here?” no one had noticed it before. Management director’s question surprised everyone. All the teachers were looking into those pictures again. That dirty face popped through the variously arranged kids just like a beautiful curtain with a hole allows the ugliness, filth or sickness inside a house with no other cover.
“We did not notice him at all. India gate is a big place and so many beggars around.” This not so strong excuse of that teacher just added to the director’s irritation.
“You should have taken better care.”
“Sorry sir. Next time we will take better care.” That teacher came with a prompt apology.
“And burn these pictures. We cannot add them to our school album. Arrange any other trip and get some pictures that we can put for our advertisement.” This precise instruction came with a coldness that was enough to put the teachers on their toes.
“Oh I don’t know how that bastard got into all the photographs”. A teacher murmured as he was given the charge for arranging everything.
“Better we arrange this time in some amusement park. No such nonsense is there.” One teacher suggested. All the heads nodded in approval.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
BASTARDS
BASTARDS
“What place you are from?”
“Delhi.”
“No; I mean what place you are originally from?”
“Bihar.”
“All of you?”
“Mostly. Some are from Madhya Pradesh and Uttar Pradesh and Bengal.”
It was a group of five persons. They were doing some research work on the slum dwellers. Particulars were required and they were collecting it. They did not go for the data given in other researches in this field. First hand has its value. They clicked photographs and took names of the persons they interviewed. A curious lot was looking at them in complete awe.
“What is the most common occupation of you people?”
“Usually it is rickshaw. Selling water, tea… you can see many of us on the footpaths with something selling. Too many to tell you. Look, this Ramu sells Kachouri and Chhole and earns good. at least hundred rupees after paying the police men, local don, grocery man and his own expenses.”
“It’s really very good.” They showed a smile in appreciation of whatever that person was saying. One was impatient to ask the next question in the list but he got no chance. He had to wait and he had to listen. Enthusiasm was compelling.
“Usually it is said that some people living in the slums indulge in petty crimes like pocket picking, theft, snatching, etc. slums are a good place for ganza, charas etc. what do you say?”
Dasrath was thinking as one of them clicked him. He looked a bit confused. Expressions came as if he wanted to say many things but something was stopping him. Finally, he began slowly. “Yes some people are in such sort of activities but we do not do anything like that.”
“You got no place at your native places and here you it is given. Is not it ungrateful whatever you do to this place?”
He was silent again. Same things happening again. Somebody was asking another somebody that what was the matter and who were those people. The reply was that they were some sahibs. They had come in a car, which was standing at the end of the slum. They were asking people about their original place and something about their work etc.
The person looked as if he remembered something. The next moment he was off.
“Slums are seen as a big security problem. Municipality says that it is difficult to keep such places clean. Police says that patrolling in such places is impossible and criminals enjoy this thing.”
The expressions on Dasrath’s face were fixed. A humbling smile that accepted all the blames and begged to be forgiven or rather tolerated.
“Do you send your children to schools?”
“We want but can not.”
“Reason?”
“Can not afford a private school and government schools don’t take them.”
“You are not true. In fact you are lying. We just coming from another slum and there some children were going to schools. It is another case that they are not good in studies or manners but at least they are going to schools. Schools take them.”
Something was brimming over. Dasrath stood from his bed. “what did you say? I am lying.” His tone alarmed them. The joined palms and humble voice were gone. They tried to correct his memory by saying that they did not mean that. They simply meant that it was not possible. No stop for him.
“yes we got no place at our native place. It is true today. But it was not always the same. My father never talked of Delhi. Whatever sustained us, we survived. Moreover, people are still living there and surviving. I came here to have something more than mere survival. And look what your Delhi has given us. Living in this river belly, we dream a future. Sometimes it is a flood wiping out our huts and sometimes it is some big temple and sometimes some game. Dreams brought terror and we stopped dreaming. I always remind my children this thing. Some people have raised their families on the footpaths. Some have lost. I do not blame you but you can not blame us either. And what was the other thing…yes cleanliness and law and order. Look I understand them. We are not living here free of cost. We pay the police; and we pay the municipality; and we pay the local don. See what more gratefulness you expect from us.” Suddenly Dasrath moved and took something. “ look, this is the water you drink. Twelve or fifteen, you pay for oe bottle of one liter. we can not drink this nor we are considered human enough to be given water by your so kind government. See what we drink.” Dasrath took a glass of water lying there. “ I know you pretended to drink this but you did not. But we do.” He gulped down that glass and gave the glass to a child standing there. “ we have to because we have no other option. We also want to drink good water and have good food. No, I am not blaming anyone. And, why to? I left my village with a hope. Here that got lost somewhere. A nomadic life never gave any chance of searching it again. We must be grateful to your Delhi for making us so happy.” Suddenly a voice interrupted and everyone became silent. The scholars turned in surprise as that cursing voice was directed towards them. A person was standing on his wooden crutches. Face unshaved from god knows when. “what are these? Came with another notice to vacate this place? Hey, have we become so respected that you came with a notice? Hey, somebody see where is the bulldozer?” Dasrath moved quickly and tried to silent him. it was a quite a scene but he managed it. He told him something in a low tone and he became silent. He went out, murmuring something. “This is Dukhiya. He lost his legs while working for a building contractor. They gave the hospital charges and sent him with a promise of giving him compensation . that compensation is yet to come. He has got a spot near this red-light for begging. He and his wife, both sit there and, the same, after paying the police and the mafia, get enough to keep their ends together. He had to beg for this location and had to pay extra amount. Hope you would not mind his behaviour. You know how shameful it is to be a beggar.” Suddenly he stopped for a moment. “Oh sorry. Forgive me. How could you know how it feels to be a beggar! In fact, I am telling this because I remember how bitterly he wept when he returned after his first day.” Suddenly something overpowered him and his voice almost drowned into something too inside. He was scarcely audible. “ in a way, all of us are beggars. We beg for space, we beg for pity, we beg for every moment we are allowed to stay here; we beg for a minimal human treatment which is never for us, we beg for everything that your government boasts of giving us but we never get; we beg for survival. And we know how humiliating it is. Have you ever faced any such things?”
This was Dasrath’s first question. He looked towards them. They were silent. “ oh, I don’t need any answer for this. I know that you don’t.”
One of them looked in watch and then the faces of his remaining colleagues. “ I think we should leave now. It’s the time.”
“Thanks a lot Mr. Dasrath for your valuable time. We will talk to you later. We will have to leave as its getting late. We had brought something for these children. Can you distribute it among them.” Suddenly a boy snatched the packet from his hand and ran outside. Others ran after him, using all filthy words to stop him. They looked in disgust. Dasrath was looking at those running children and said, “See how they learn to survive. In my village, in childhood days, we used to share even a single mango with all the siblings. But now they are in Delhi and know its ways.”
They thanked him again and left. As most of the people were out to work, they could not have much data collected. And then this wastage. “We could not have stopped him. it could have hurt their self respect and we have to collect some more data from here.” They had come to there car. “Look what these bastards have done.”
These were the hearts drawn as learnt from the popular Bollywood movies and someone had written, “I love you” with something black.
“These bastards scratched my new car.” The girl was fuming.
“You heard that old rascal’s language. Disgusting. And how filthy he looked.”
“I wish just when this sucking part is over.”
“We will have to come here again in one or two days.”
“Can’t we do with this much only? I have clicked many other faces and we can write some names and then it is not difficult to fill the further details.” The car had crossed the bumpy road and it was on the smooth road.
“Stop the car near some restaurant.” One of them opened his bag, took out a bottle and sprayed on everyone. “Oh thanks a lot yaar. We really needed this. So many stinking bodies. It was really too much. I didn’t know this.”
“But still guys, that rascal was speaking good. I wonder.”
“What place you are from?”
“Delhi.”
“No; I mean what place you are originally from?”
“Bihar.”
“All of you?”
“Mostly. Some are from Madhya Pradesh and Uttar Pradesh and Bengal.”
It was a group of five persons. They were doing some research work on the slum dwellers. Particulars were required and they were collecting it. They did not go for the data given in other researches in this field. First hand has its value. They clicked photographs and took names of the persons they interviewed. A curious lot was looking at them in complete awe.
“What is the most common occupation of you people?”
“Usually it is rickshaw. Selling water, tea… you can see many of us on the footpaths with something selling. Too many to tell you. Look, this Ramu sells Kachouri and Chhole and earns good. at least hundred rupees after paying the police men, local don, grocery man and his own expenses.”
“It’s really very good.” They showed a smile in appreciation of whatever that person was saying. One was impatient to ask the next question in the list but he got no chance. He had to wait and he had to listen. Enthusiasm was compelling.
“Usually it is said that some people living in the slums indulge in petty crimes like pocket picking, theft, snatching, etc. slums are a good place for ganza, charas etc. what do you say?”
Dasrath was thinking as one of them clicked him. He looked a bit confused. Expressions came as if he wanted to say many things but something was stopping him. Finally, he began slowly. “Yes some people are in such sort of activities but we do not do anything like that.”
“You got no place at your native places and here you it is given. Is not it ungrateful whatever you do to this place?”
He was silent again. Same things happening again. Somebody was asking another somebody that what was the matter and who were those people. The reply was that they were some sahibs. They had come in a car, which was standing at the end of the slum. They were asking people about their original place and something about their work etc.
The person looked as if he remembered something. The next moment he was off.
“Slums are seen as a big security problem. Municipality says that it is difficult to keep such places clean. Police says that patrolling in such places is impossible and criminals enjoy this thing.”
The expressions on Dasrath’s face were fixed. A humbling smile that accepted all the blames and begged to be forgiven or rather tolerated.
“Do you send your children to schools?”
“We want but can not.”
“Reason?”
“Can not afford a private school and government schools don’t take them.”
“You are not true. In fact you are lying. We just coming from another slum and there some children were going to schools. It is another case that they are not good in studies or manners but at least they are going to schools. Schools take them.”
Something was brimming over. Dasrath stood from his bed. “what did you say? I am lying.” His tone alarmed them. The joined palms and humble voice were gone. They tried to correct his memory by saying that they did not mean that. They simply meant that it was not possible. No stop for him.
“yes we got no place at our native place. It is true today. But it was not always the same. My father never talked of Delhi. Whatever sustained us, we survived. Moreover, people are still living there and surviving. I came here to have something more than mere survival. And look what your Delhi has given us. Living in this river belly, we dream a future. Sometimes it is a flood wiping out our huts and sometimes it is some big temple and sometimes some game. Dreams brought terror and we stopped dreaming. I always remind my children this thing. Some people have raised their families on the footpaths. Some have lost. I do not blame you but you can not blame us either. And what was the other thing…yes cleanliness and law and order. Look I understand them. We are not living here free of cost. We pay the police; and we pay the municipality; and we pay the local don. See what more gratefulness you expect from us.” Suddenly Dasrath moved and took something. “ look, this is the water you drink. Twelve or fifteen, you pay for oe bottle of one liter. we can not drink this nor we are considered human enough to be given water by your so kind government. See what we drink.” Dasrath took a glass of water lying there. “ I know you pretended to drink this but you did not. But we do.” He gulped down that glass and gave the glass to a child standing there. “ we have to because we have no other option. We also want to drink good water and have good food. No, I am not blaming anyone. And, why to? I left my village with a hope. Here that got lost somewhere. A nomadic life never gave any chance of searching it again. We must be grateful to your Delhi for making us so happy.” Suddenly a voice interrupted and everyone became silent. The scholars turned in surprise as that cursing voice was directed towards them. A person was standing on his wooden crutches. Face unshaved from god knows when. “what are these? Came with another notice to vacate this place? Hey, have we become so respected that you came with a notice? Hey, somebody see where is the bulldozer?” Dasrath moved quickly and tried to silent him. it was a quite a scene but he managed it. He told him something in a low tone and he became silent. He went out, murmuring something. “This is Dukhiya. He lost his legs while working for a building contractor. They gave the hospital charges and sent him with a promise of giving him compensation . that compensation is yet to come. He has got a spot near this red-light for begging. He and his wife, both sit there and, the same, after paying the police and the mafia, get enough to keep their ends together. He had to beg for this location and had to pay extra amount. Hope you would not mind his behaviour. You know how shameful it is to be a beggar.” Suddenly he stopped for a moment. “Oh sorry. Forgive me. How could you know how it feels to be a beggar! In fact, I am telling this because I remember how bitterly he wept when he returned after his first day.” Suddenly something overpowered him and his voice almost drowned into something too inside. He was scarcely audible. “ in a way, all of us are beggars. We beg for space, we beg for pity, we beg for every moment we are allowed to stay here; we beg for a minimal human treatment which is never for us, we beg for everything that your government boasts of giving us but we never get; we beg for survival. And we know how humiliating it is. Have you ever faced any such things?”
This was Dasrath’s first question. He looked towards them. They were silent. “ oh, I don’t need any answer for this. I know that you don’t.”
One of them looked in watch and then the faces of his remaining colleagues. “ I think we should leave now. It’s the time.”
“Thanks a lot Mr. Dasrath for your valuable time. We will talk to you later. We will have to leave as its getting late. We had brought something for these children. Can you distribute it among them.” Suddenly a boy snatched the packet from his hand and ran outside. Others ran after him, using all filthy words to stop him. They looked in disgust. Dasrath was looking at those running children and said, “See how they learn to survive. In my village, in childhood days, we used to share even a single mango with all the siblings. But now they are in Delhi and know its ways.”
They thanked him again and left. As most of the people were out to work, they could not have much data collected. And then this wastage. “We could not have stopped him. it could have hurt their self respect and we have to collect some more data from here.” They had come to there car. “Look what these bastards have done.”
These were the hearts drawn as learnt from the popular Bollywood movies and someone had written, “I love you” with something black.
“These bastards scratched my new car.” The girl was fuming.
“You heard that old rascal’s language. Disgusting. And how filthy he looked.”
“I wish just when this sucking part is over.”
“We will have to come here again in one or two days.”
“Can’t we do with this much only? I have clicked many other faces and we can write some names and then it is not difficult to fill the further details.” The car had crossed the bumpy road and it was on the smooth road.
“Stop the car near some restaurant.” One of them opened his bag, took out a bottle and sprayed on everyone. “Oh thanks a lot yaar. We really needed this. So many stinking bodies. It was really too much. I didn’t know this.”
“But still guys, that rascal was speaking good. I wonder.”
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
ARCHIES QUOTE
"I was sitting on the shore of him when the ocean was boasting of his size and depth and seriousness. I just opened my heart and showed my love for you. He spoke nothing else." I spoke these lines to her while her smiling eyes were inspiring the most sacred love in my heart, which is closest to worship.
"Hey, what about sending these lines to Archies? People will love bying such a passionate quote." Her smile was broader now. But something was changed.
I also smiled. I started laughing....laughing in disgust. I heard many things breaking around.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
BIG BROTHER
BIG BROTHER
“BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.”
I wonder how these words affect you at the first encounter. Honestly speaking, for me, it meant something divine, combined with the beauty of nature. Now I know how ironical it would appear to them who have read George Orwell’s 1984. but the time when I came across Big Brother for the first time, I was not acquainted with such things. Nor I was so much accustomed to an aloof or objective thinking about the darker side of life.
Actually I was just out of Orwell’s “Animal Farm” when it happened. I was sitting in a P.C.O. when a three rupee photo encountered my eyes. Four white horses standing in a lush green field, looking at something and a black line reading- BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU. All the phones were busy and I was sitting ideal. Thinking something. Probably something that I wanted to do. When this happened, I am not so sure. My rational mind was grappling with the question of big brother. “what this big brother can mean?” horses don’t have big brother. They are animals and not intelligent or wise enough to maintain such relations. Second, all four can not have the same big brother. Third, the parents and children relation also ends among them after a long separation.. my applied wisdom gave me a quick and appealing solution-GOD. now it was – BIG BRITHER(GOD) IS WTCHING YOU. I felt satisfied. I took a phone set and dialed to my father. “all the lines to this route are busy. Please try after some time.” a sweet, computerized female sound failed all my attempts. I found the booth operator a bit irritated. I thought it better to try after some time. I was feeling a bit irritated, as I had not talked to my father for a long time. I was again looking at those horses. A felt a crack appearing in my divine and beautiful solution. God has a father’s image. Then how he could be a brother! It locked a plausible question.
Man is instinctively curious and restless(second quality is comparatively less universal and neither is really universal). Probably, restless because he is curious. It was this curiosity that put the enormous weight of this sky on the shoulders of Atlas or the Hood of some snake or something else. And, later on, disburdened them in a course of many centuries when Einstein was able to hold everything on his single theory. I went back to the photo again. The watching “BIG BROTHER” was nowhere in it. Did the person adding this line know this thing? A “may be” could have solved my problem. But I knew it was not such. I had to go on with my reasoning to find that big brother.
I have a great faith in the dynamic nature of this world. From our Upanishad age to the modern times, it is stated and echoed everywhere. Don’t you remember Nehru’s ideal society that keeps changing and improving with the course of time? I know that many of us are thinking about Gandhi’s Ram Rajya, the final culmination of an ideal state. But I believe that we can improve upon that. That was the best or ideal for that time. But in the changed and rapidly changing scenario the ideal must be rethought and redrawn.
How “BIG BROTHER” fits in this dynamic course. Let me attempt. First there was an imaginary sketch of the big brother. They had some very different language and therefore their BIG BROTHER was also different. They feasted, they reveled, they enjoyed around him. Humankind’s first consciousness might have come with its self-conscious differentiation from the animals. Therefore, it had an innate tendency of developing itself different from the animals. A laboured move towards the cultivation of sophistication. BIG BROTHER could not be left behind. Sketching was quite simple and everyone was capable of doing this. Second, from distance all the sketches looked alike- having similar features. In a more sophisticated world some proposed the idea of painting big brother. A nicely drawn image. Painted with charming colours and all the bodily features portrayed with precise accuracy. Not everyone was capable of doing this. A selected few took the charge. But this change was not so smooth or simple. The idea of sketching was still alive and some people often resorted to that. It caused some conflict and some quite new phenomena. One of them was the popularity competition. Person whose BIG BROTHER was liked the most was given the sole charge or authority of sketching or painting. Usually one from the sophisticated painters rose to this position. Time was moving and some of the painters were trying hard to bring some innovation. A two-dimensional portrayal was not giving enough space for showing their art. Further they wanted to adorn BIG BROTHER with all the possible positive attributes. While the expertise for this artisanship was limited to very few, it required much bigger amount of labour. The painters without this expertise were opposing the very idea of statue making. The experts found a solution. the other painters were given the office of selecting and hiring labourers for the statue making. They built bigger and bigger statues. One was so big that people almost fell down when trying to see its face while standing at its feet. one day some fingers in its feet were missing. The fear of sketch lovers returned. Very next day a large number of people was hired to protect the statues. Painters in the office were also getting a big portion of total work. Now, the cost involved in all these could not be ignored for a long time. It was found difficult to pay for all these without getting some new resources. Painters painted some cheaper “BIG BROTHER” – bringing honour to everyone, caring and loving everyone, sustaining everyone. Even the starving beggars felt thrilled. And they found what they wanted-“ human resource”. But this was not that enough. BIG BROTHER needed to do something more. And suddenly his statues started disappearing. statue makers said that ‘big brother’ had become invisible and now he was everywhere, every time. He was in the books, he was in the labs. From theatre to bedroom, big brother was everywhere. Some drunk people blabbered that they didn’t believed in big brother. Next day alcohol disappeared from the market and the drunkards also started believing in big brother. Alcohol. Returned gradually but always with a symbol of BIG BROTHER.
Now , in all this about BIG BROTHER I totally forgot about a quality what I said to be innate in the mankind- a self conscious cultivation of sophistication. While BIG BOSS was going through all the transformations, this innate quality also faced a big change. By the time painting gained upper hand, it was extracted from the individual consciousness and placed at some secret , official space. This was to save it from any corruption. Whenever any new sophistication developed, some painter copied it and displayed in the public. This display came be centered around the center. It had a limited viewership and, hence, limited imitation. Those working in the fields or mines had no time to see these, nor any money to afford. Rich and poor were there and sophistication remained with its rightful clients.
BIG BROTHER had come everywhere. Some people challenged his authenticity and authority. They said that all this was a big drama, played by the selected few. Mental asylums and hospitals took care of them. Mentally retarded, those people, understood the power of BIG BROTHER with every shock.
Freed from the three dimensional existence, BIG BROTHER achieved an even higher existence. He moved into a four dimensional existence- sort of time space. Everything else was inside him and he was inside every thing. Only thing differentiating from god was tat he was not other- worldly. His blessings came in the form of good governance, security against all the threats from within or outside, promise for a better life if the present was not so good, consolation that the bad was not really so bad and much better than the worst. Persecution, exclusion and marginalization, elimination- these were the results of big brother’s wrath.
“Every person should know the law of his land.”
Everyone knew “BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.”
I was quite satisfied with my theoretical odyssey when something struck me. Animals did not have the same journey of consciousness. I had left them with nature- still naked and still in contact. And it was the solution. Those horses were watched by nature while they were watching and enjoying its beauty and graces. I felt jealous. I watched a romantic-comedy film with my girl friend, ate in a restaurant, and went to disco. I did everything possible to fill a vacuum growing inside me.
I was understanding BIG BROTHER now.
“BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.”
I wonder how these words affect you at the first encounter. Honestly speaking, for me, it meant something divine, combined with the beauty of nature. Now I know how ironical it would appear to them who have read George Orwell’s 1984. but the time when I came across Big Brother for the first time, I was not acquainted with such things. Nor I was so much accustomed to an aloof or objective thinking about the darker side of life.
Actually I was just out of Orwell’s “Animal Farm” when it happened. I was sitting in a P.C.O. when a three rupee photo encountered my eyes. Four white horses standing in a lush green field, looking at something and a black line reading- BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU. All the phones were busy and I was sitting ideal. Thinking something. Probably something that I wanted to do. When this happened, I am not so sure. My rational mind was grappling with the question of big brother. “what this big brother can mean?” horses don’t have big brother. They are animals and not intelligent or wise enough to maintain such relations. Second, all four can not have the same big brother. Third, the parents and children relation also ends among them after a long separation.. my applied wisdom gave me a quick and appealing solution-GOD. now it was – BIG BRITHER(GOD) IS WTCHING YOU. I felt satisfied. I took a phone set and dialed to my father. “all the lines to this route are busy. Please try after some time.” a sweet, computerized female sound failed all my attempts. I found the booth operator a bit irritated. I thought it better to try after some time. I was feeling a bit irritated, as I had not talked to my father for a long time. I was again looking at those horses. A felt a crack appearing in my divine and beautiful solution. God has a father’s image. Then how he could be a brother! It locked a plausible question.
Man is instinctively curious and restless(second quality is comparatively less universal and neither is really universal). Probably, restless because he is curious. It was this curiosity that put the enormous weight of this sky on the shoulders of Atlas or the Hood of some snake or something else. And, later on, disburdened them in a course of many centuries when Einstein was able to hold everything on his single theory. I went back to the photo again. The watching “BIG BROTHER” was nowhere in it. Did the person adding this line know this thing? A “may be” could have solved my problem. But I knew it was not such. I had to go on with my reasoning to find that big brother.
I have a great faith in the dynamic nature of this world. From our Upanishad age to the modern times, it is stated and echoed everywhere. Don’t you remember Nehru’s ideal society that keeps changing and improving with the course of time? I know that many of us are thinking about Gandhi’s Ram Rajya, the final culmination of an ideal state. But I believe that we can improve upon that. That was the best or ideal for that time. But in the changed and rapidly changing scenario the ideal must be rethought and redrawn.
How “BIG BROTHER” fits in this dynamic course. Let me attempt. First there was an imaginary sketch of the big brother. They had some very different language and therefore their BIG BROTHER was also different. They feasted, they reveled, they enjoyed around him. Humankind’s first consciousness might have come with its self-conscious differentiation from the animals. Therefore, it had an innate tendency of developing itself different from the animals. A laboured move towards the cultivation of sophistication. BIG BROTHER could not be left behind. Sketching was quite simple and everyone was capable of doing this. Second, from distance all the sketches looked alike- having similar features. In a more sophisticated world some proposed the idea of painting big brother. A nicely drawn image. Painted with charming colours and all the bodily features portrayed with precise accuracy. Not everyone was capable of doing this. A selected few took the charge. But this change was not so smooth or simple. The idea of sketching was still alive and some people often resorted to that. It caused some conflict and some quite new phenomena. One of them was the popularity competition. Person whose BIG BROTHER was liked the most was given the sole charge or authority of sketching or painting. Usually one from the sophisticated painters rose to this position. Time was moving and some of the painters were trying hard to bring some innovation. A two-dimensional portrayal was not giving enough space for showing their art. Further they wanted to adorn BIG BROTHER with all the possible positive attributes. While the expertise for this artisanship was limited to very few, it required much bigger amount of labour. The painters without this expertise were opposing the very idea of statue making. The experts found a solution. the other painters were given the office of selecting and hiring labourers for the statue making. They built bigger and bigger statues. One was so big that people almost fell down when trying to see its face while standing at its feet. one day some fingers in its feet were missing. The fear of sketch lovers returned. Very next day a large number of people was hired to protect the statues. Painters in the office were also getting a big portion of total work. Now, the cost involved in all these could not be ignored for a long time. It was found difficult to pay for all these without getting some new resources. Painters painted some cheaper “BIG BROTHER” – bringing honour to everyone, caring and loving everyone, sustaining everyone. Even the starving beggars felt thrilled. And they found what they wanted-“ human resource”. But this was not that enough. BIG BROTHER needed to do something more. And suddenly his statues started disappearing. statue makers said that ‘big brother’ had become invisible and now he was everywhere, every time. He was in the books, he was in the labs. From theatre to bedroom, big brother was everywhere. Some drunk people blabbered that they didn’t believed in big brother. Next day alcohol disappeared from the market and the drunkards also started believing in big brother. Alcohol. Returned gradually but always with a symbol of BIG BROTHER.
Now , in all this about BIG BROTHER I totally forgot about a quality what I said to be innate in the mankind- a self conscious cultivation of sophistication. While BIG BOSS was going through all the transformations, this innate quality also faced a big change. By the time painting gained upper hand, it was extracted from the individual consciousness and placed at some secret , official space. This was to save it from any corruption. Whenever any new sophistication developed, some painter copied it and displayed in the public. This display came be centered around the center. It had a limited viewership and, hence, limited imitation. Those working in the fields or mines had no time to see these, nor any money to afford. Rich and poor were there and sophistication remained with its rightful clients.
BIG BROTHER had come everywhere. Some people challenged his authenticity and authority. They said that all this was a big drama, played by the selected few. Mental asylums and hospitals took care of them. Mentally retarded, those people, understood the power of BIG BROTHER with every shock.
Freed from the three dimensional existence, BIG BROTHER achieved an even higher existence. He moved into a four dimensional existence- sort of time space. Everything else was inside him and he was inside every thing. Only thing differentiating from god was tat he was not other- worldly. His blessings came in the form of good governance, security against all the threats from within or outside, promise for a better life if the present was not so good, consolation that the bad was not really so bad and much better than the worst. Persecution, exclusion and marginalization, elimination- these were the results of big brother’s wrath.
“Every person should know the law of his land.”
Everyone knew “BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.”
I was quite satisfied with my theoretical odyssey when something struck me. Animals did not have the same journey of consciousness. I had left them with nature- still naked and still in contact. And it was the solution. Those horses were watched by nature while they were watching and enjoying its beauty and graces. I felt jealous. I watched a romantic-comedy film with my girl friend, ate in a restaurant, and went to disco. I did everything possible to fill a vacuum growing inside me.
I was understanding BIG BROTHER now.
Monday, October 13, 2008
HY INDIA
HEY INDIA
Hi India!
Hope you are having a relaxed time after some troubled days. I can understand this. Even though terrorism is not new to you, you look shocked when it appears before you. Same is the case when it is some financial crisis. Take it easy. I have something pleasant for you. Many praises. At a time when everyone is out to criticize the things inside you or around you, I hope it will give you a great relief. I am giving you the same copy’s copy that she gave me. Even though it was more than one year ago, good things are always welcome. Especially when good things are slipping faster than sands in one’s hand.
As a foreign student, I have not seen much of India. Still I am trying my best to put together the things that I know about India. India is a democratic country with a massive population. Due to this(population) planning for country’s development is always a big challenge. Government is doing good effort in this direction.
India has a rich culture. It has its own way of living, thinking and doing. Its traditional ideas and values are very different from the western countries. Indians’ lifestyle always reflects their identity. It is apparent in their ways of dressing, way of speaking etc. Indians may live in foreign countries but they keep their own way of living. They have great nationalist feelings. They love their country.
I have found that Indian people, especially the educated youth, are trying very hard to improve their country. Moreover, they are progressing in several fields like information technology, education, medical science, military prowess etc. I have read in a newspaper that a doctor operated one person’s kidney and liver during the same operation. I feel that
Indians have good intelligence.
India has lots of natural resources and it has a huge force of skilled and unskilled workers. Technical development is quite phenomenal. It has the latest weapons and now it wields nuclear power as well. India is moving fast and fast.
Indian tradition of classical plays/dramas has some similarities with that of the other Southeast Asian nations. Rama legends are a quite a strong bound with among them. It is one of the most civilized countries of the world.
No country in the world can be out and out good. Similarly, India also has some demerits or drawbacks. Class division is a major one. It would not be a problem if everyone accepts this. But the continuous class conflicts pose a serious problem. Economic disparity needs to be addressed in a positive way. Another problem is the working culture of India. I must be more precise to talk about the working culture in the government offices. It is sometimes pathetically slow and irritatingly irresponsible. Lack of co- operation is often a problem. As a foreign student, I have faced this aspect of India with some unpleasant surprise. If Indian people can change this habit, they can fight against all the odds and emerge as the best country in the world.
As I am little informed about India and the related issues, my article can look silly sometimes. However, it is not so much about the facts as it is about my feelings. Hope my readers will understand this.
I know that ignorance can produce or help to produce the most beautiful feelings, thoughts or things. Your admirer is blessed with this disadvantage. And now look the beauty of her words. From an informed vantage point most of her ideas may sound ironical. I have seen you crying often –“brain drainage, brain drainage”. When farmers were committing suicide in Orrisa and Madhya Pradesh, you had several sleepless nights. Always worried about how to cover the things or how to escape the questions. Do you remember the day which is still mourned as “Bhopal Gas Tragedy”? only some days ago some physically handicapped people, still existing victims of that tragedy, were protesting in delhi for some compensation or something else and how much labour you had to put in acting “Deaf”. How difficult it was to give five thousand crore rupees to those worthless farmers who had lost all their crops when it could have been better used for the country’s industrialization by funding the industrial families. I know things are not so easy. I appreciate your tact. Purchasing arms from the U.S.A. or Russia is not only adding to your power but also wins you good friends. People keep crying for education, health care, financial security etc. I see how difficult it is to be patient with them. So much outcry on the issue of economic disparity when your rational wisdom knows that lions and ants both can exist in the same world without ever complaining. However, I often see behind your strong and determined exterior a guilty and apprehensive self, which has lost control over itself and knows not what is right to do.
Hope you will enjoy the time reading this page. Nothing is better than an admirer who knows you the best. Nevertheless, even one knowing little about you must be welcome when you know that it is difficult to admire you after knowing everything about you. Have a nice time.
Yours ……………………….
Hi India!
Hope you are having a relaxed time after some troubled days. I can understand this. Even though terrorism is not new to you, you look shocked when it appears before you. Same is the case when it is some financial crisis. Take it easy. I have something pleasant for you. Many praises. At a time when everyone is out to criticize the things inside you or around you, I hope it will give you a great relief. I am giving you the same copy’s copy that she gave me. Even though it was more than one year ago, good things are always welcome. Especially when good things are slipping faster than sands in one’s hand.
As a foreign student, I have not seen much of India. Still I am trying my best to put together the things that I know about India. India is a democratic country with a massive population. Due to this(population) planning for country’s development is always a big challenge. Government is doing good effort in this direction.
India has a rich culture. It has its own way of living, thinking and doing. Its traditional ideas and values are very different from the western countries. Indians’ lifestyle always reflects their identity. It is apparent in their ways of dressing, way of speaking etc. Indians may live in foreign countries but they keep their own way of living. They have great nationalist feelings. They love their country.
I have found that Indian people, especially the educated youth, are trying very hard to improve their country. Moreover, they are progressing in several fields like information technology, education, medical science, military prowess etc. I have read in a newspaper that a doctor operated one person’s kidney and liver during the same operation. I feel that
Indians have good intelligence.
India has lots of natural resources and it has a huge force of skilled and unskilled workers. Technical development is quite phenomenal. It has the latest weapons and now it wields nuclear power as well. India is moving fast and fast.
Indian tradition of classical plays/dramas has some similarities with that of the other Southeast Asian nations. Rama legends are a quite a strong bound with among them. It is one of the most civilized countries of the world.
No country in the world can be out and out good. Similarly, India also has some demerits or drawbacks. Class division is a major one. It would not be a problem if everyone accepts this. But the continuous class conflicts pose a serious problem. Economic disparity needs to be addressed in a positive way. Another problem is the working culture of India. I must be more precise to talk about the working culture in the government offices. It is sometimes pathetically slow and irritatingly irresponsible. Lack of co- operation is often a problem. As a foreign student, I have faced this aspect of India with some unpleasant surprise. If Indian people can change this habit, they can fight against all the odds and emerge as the best country in the world.
As I am little informed about India and the related issues, my article can look silly sometimes. However, it is not so much about the facts as it is about my feelings. Hope my readers will understand this.
I know that ignorance can produce or help to produce the most beautiful feelings, thoughts or things. Your admirer is blessed with this disadvantage. And now look the beauty of her words. From an informed vantage point most of her ideas may sound ironical. I have seen you crying often –“brain drainage, brain drainage”. When farmers were committing suicide in Orrisa and Madhya Pradesh, you had several sleepless nights. Always worried about how to cover the things or how to escape the questions. Do you remember the day which is still mourned as “Bhopal Gas Tragedy”? only some days ago some physically handicapped people, still existing victims of that tragedy, were protesting in delhi for some compensation or something else and how much labour you had to put in acting “Deaf”. How difficult it was to give five thousand crore rupees to those worthless farmers who had lost all their crops when it could have been better used for the country’s industrialization by funding the industrial families. I know things are not so easy. I appreciate your tact. Purchasing arms from the U.S.A. or Russia is not only adding to your power but also wins you good friends. People keep crying for education, health care, financial security etc. I see how difficult it is to be patient with them. So much outcry on the issue of economic disparity when your rational wisdom knows that lions and ants both can exist in the same world without ever complaining. However, I often see behind your strong and determined exterior a guilty and apprehensive self, which has lost control over itself and knows not what is right to do.
Hope you will enjoy the time reading this page. Nothing is better than an admirer who knows you the best. Nevertheless, even one knowing little about you must be welcome when you know that it is difficult to admire you after knowing everything about you. Have a nice time.
Yours ……………………….
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